Again, duh! I never did anything about it though, because am an idiot. Relationship OCD is something people most commonly ignore and blame it on their lifestyle, but the fact is that it is a personal fear of not wanting to lose yourself to the wrong person. for the sake of helping others better understand HOCD, that obsessive-compulsive phenomenon where a straight person obsesses … OCD always feels real. I suffer from OCD. It was a sort of non-manly sissy feeling. I just can’t. I hope this is hocd! If you are an HOCD sufferer, you’ve almost certainly read an article called “I’m Gay and You’re Not: Understanding Homosexuality Fears” by Mark-Ameen Johnson, a gay man with a history of OCD. The porn use continued. Since I’ve been getting so much traffic on my blog in regard to HOCD (homosexual OCD), I thought I’d do another post on it. But it feels so real, so like I want the thought that my brain is convinced it’s not hocd. John Smith / November 15, 2013. HOCD can be demoralizing. Recently though, I've been doubting myself, and I keep getting thoughts/worries … The HOCD sufferer is very likely to have groinal responses around the same sex for the precise reason that they are checking and telling themselves not to. This morning when I woke up the idea of being with a woman felt weird and like non sense. My self-esteem, for whatever reason, took a real bashing. It plays with your mind, making you believe lies and doubt truth. If it did not, it would not be OCD. HOCD feels real? I am a 21 year old female that recently started questioning my sexual orientation. Jan 3 in HOCD. OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) is a psychological condition that hijacks the brain, forcing us to think unwanted, 'obsessive' thoughts and perform behaviors to reduce anxiety associated with these thoughts called 'compulsions.' There is a lot of homophobia in the world and it doesn’t take a heterosexual to be homophobic. 44 minutes ago in HOCD Someone asked the same question “what’s the difference between hocd and denial” and both of the people who answered basically said that it’s not a real disorder, and that people deep in the closet forced medical professionals to create this term. Please pray for me, this HOCD is destroying my life, and at times it can feel so real. Doctors don't seem to understand. HOCD feels real to me, why would people tell me it is not? This question is seriously making me OCD so much worse. And very often the help that they offer is limited to medication, often anti-depressants. Furthermore, thoughts and feelings about these perceived and real sensations intensify the experience, creating a vicious cycle of thinking, sensing, fearing, thinking, and sensing some more. In fact, you may have even considered suicide because the thoughts seem so real, and the possibility of being gay is absolutely horrifying to you. I don’t know who I am anymore. The irrational idea combines with the emotional fear and it feels real. Hey peeps! I actually remember similar thoughts over the years that before the breakdown just came in and went out as thoughts do. Comment 6. I can’t remember my past and can’t think about the future. Homosexual OCD can be … Hello everyone. Why do my HOCD thoughts feel real? HOCD, ROCD or real feelings; Forum home New posts My favourite threads Community Achievements Creative community Community stories. By the same token, some people with HOCD fear being gay itself. by Megadude1337 » Mon Oct 31, 2016 12:03 am Hello i'm a teenage male, i've had HOCD for almost a month now, and i'll say it's one of the worst things i've ever experienced. (Although, at times, you may feel quite depressed due to your problem !) ), I posted an interview with “Hannah,” a former HOCD sufferer who had found freedom from her obsessions and compulsions through ERP therapy. Thanks: 1. Anyway, I always get erections from girls. I then started to obsess over thoughts that I might be gay, as well as constantly over any insecurities I had. It feels so annoying cause I loved crushing on guys. He is so sad and worried that the feelings are starting to feel real. One year ago (exactly! Eventually, she decided that she needed to become involved with a new boyfriend to feel sure about her sexual identity. I know about ERP but I don't want to share this with my friends or family and also worried that it will create images and audios in my mind. HOCD is killing. Since the thoughts plague me literally 24/7 like many other hocd sufferers, it is especially hard and i feel this feeling of attraction all day without a break since i am surrounded by women everywhere i go. I have lots of gay friends and they are not panic stricken by their sexual identity. It's like arousal it's just a normal symptom among hocd suffurers. So it feels nice to write that out to a community that has dealt with some of these things. It can ruin lives. For whatever reason, the thought of being gay (or even bisexual) feels like a fate worse than death…at least that’s how it always plays out in your head. I doubt very highly that someone who is gay feels like someone who has HOCD. The thoughts feel so real but then as soon as I start to believe they're real I If HOCD has left you struggling with relentless questions about your sexual identity, HOCD: Everything You Didn’t Know – A Primer for Understanding & Overcoming Homosexual Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, a book by Dr. Rosen, Founder and Clinical Director of The Center for Treatment of Anxiety and Mood Disorders will be an indispensable and compassionate guide … I don’t care anymore, and it makes the hocd just feel so real. I would later learn that truly gay people may also get HOCD, but that they falsely fear that they are heterosexual. 4 November 2017 - 1:23. I'm tired of having everything figured out and feeling that relief like it's all going to be okay and then not a day later....meltdown. Even before puberty I had crush on girls, now its like I am suppressing myself. I've always been attracted to girls, in fact last year, I liked this girl so much.. the feelings were so strong, I'd go as far as saying I loved her. Though be aware … The purpose of the present article is to explain why that article is both misguided and potentially harmful to HOCD sufferers, and to […] Of course, if this HOCD thing is real, then really anything anyone says won't help it will simply just be. hal133 hal133 [10950] • • • • (10950) Jan 4 . Homosexual OCD – HOCD Treatment. 1. It's based around the fear that one might become or somehow is homosexual, with this notion going against all rational and actuality of … There's a war going on inside of me and I want it to stop for good, not just a day at a time. That is what happened to me. First of all, I am not a doctor and I can only tell you my opinion. I had a mental breakdown due to shocking marriage debacle and having a life history of depression. Most gay people I know have some form of internalized homophobia even. Holyyyy Ffff, I have never heard of hocd, not even sure what it means but what y’all are describing has happened twice to me lasting for awhile then it goes away it was extremely confusing and caused a lot of sadness and isolation , but to the T this has happened literally I have had the thought well please let it just be bi so I can atleast enjoy women , even tho deep down I feel … Hopefully someone can provide some feedback that will help. Read three stories of people suffering from HOCD who were able to make real improvement using exposure and response prevention. I … HOCD can feel so real sometimes that I feel like i'm going crazy. Join date: Nov 2018. HOCD, ROCD or real feelings. 29 November 2018 - 21:06. trance456. Forum User. It feels so real and convincing and i still doubt myself. It’s been so bad that he will cry to me that mom why is this happening to me, that I promise I am not. With HOCD, the real fear is that the sufferer is not certain of their “true” sexual orientation. And now whenever I see a cute guy my brain tells me that I am pretending to like them but before HOCD I would be so certain that I liked a guy. I also suffered from HOCD for almost a year and i can understand you. This interview is with “Hannah,” who tells me she is ready to bare all (except for her real name, ha!) Before Hocd, I thought I will be in touch with all of my friends after marriage. It began around the end of September. HOCD is the shortened name of a rare form of obsessive-compulsive disorder, termed homosexual obsessive-compulsive disorder, or sometimes called “gay OCD” or "sexual orientation OCD.". Homosexual Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (HOCD) is categorized by intrusive thoughts revolving around one’s sexual orientation.People with HOCD suffer through uncontrollable and unwanted intrusive thoughts and images that leave them in a state of fear and anxiety about whether they are truly straight. And now it’s like I am just lesbian/bi, that I can’t deny it because it feels like I … Hocd is starting to feel REAL, please help . Sometimes the hocd tells me i enjoy the thoughts and i try to push those thoughts away. HOCD felt real to its sufferers just as my own obsessions had felt real to me. But, if you are suffering from HOCD, you are not suffering from depression. Now I feel my attraction is slowly being lost and my sexual identity the person I used to know is gone. It's based around the fear that one might become or somehow is homosexual, with this notion going against all rational and actuality of that person's sexual identity as a heterosexual. I feel like this destroys everything good in my life and it makes me so incredibly sad that I could lose someone amazing because of this. I feel like I can answer this for you having suffered from HOCD and feeling like I have beaten it just from finding out what it is. You know what the real problem is, when we have an intrusive thought (obsession) about the possibility of being gay or bi, our ocd brain is trying to make sense of it. I can relate it all feels so real :/ Reply. It's just another symptom of hocd although it might feel real it's not( been there, done that). HOCD is a real killer of your self being. And i worry if i were to start one with a woman i wouldnt be able to commit myself because of these thoughts.. and i would feel complete guilt that im lying to her or im lying to myself but i know deep down i dont think i am its totally fucked. HOCD is a very misunderstood and difficult problem. It’s gotten over 6300 views in the last year and is my second-most viewed post after “A Closer Look at HOCD.”Last summer, I said that Hannah would be willing to do a second interview if people … Reply. He been seeing a psychologist had about 5 sessions now, he keep saying mom I can’t think he can’t sleep, he said starting to think that what if this come through. HOCD HOCD is a form of obsessive compulsive disorder that deals with one's sexual identity. The obsessive thoughts are unpredictable and provoke extreme anxiety that leads us to believe we'll never have control of our thoughts. I never get any from men. It feels real because the fear is real. This course is to help you with the thoughts and images associated with HOCD The course draws on Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, Neuroscience, Mindfulness and Acceptance and Commitment Therapy The course is designed for both men and women At the moment, you will be reacting to your thoughts and images as if they are real. 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